karma and wishing
Wednesday I killed my cat - Kerrigan.
I’ve been looking at jobs and one of the big issues is that I have four cats to take care of and I said to myself several times last week and this, that if I didn’t have cats I could go anywhere in the world to look for work. If only I wasn’t tied down with these cats.
Wednesday two pitbulls were running loose in the neighborhood and ended up taking up residence in my backyard. I shot at them with my slingshot but they were moving too fast. All the other cats raced into the house but one. I looked for him and called his name and finally I saw him tearing across the backyard toward the old church. Right on his tail were the two dogs. He made it under the church and those dogs circled around for a long time. I shot at them and made noise but they kept coming back.
Eventually the other cats went outside but five minutes later tore back into the house through the cat window. I went outside and on my back step was one of the pit bulls. I swung at it with my AmpGuard Sword (a long foam sword with a bamboo core - they hurt when you get hit) but only managed to make noise. They took off.
I haven’t seen Kerrigan since Wednesday night. I went out with a flash light and looked under that church. He wasn’t there. Those dogs are gone also.
One less cat to worry about. I feel sick.
I wish I could just shot them with a bb gun but I’m not that … I don’t know. It just doesn’t seem right or proper. Am I being soft? What if I did shot them and they died on my property? Then I’d have to bury them or try to find their owners. Now if I had kids in the backyard and dogs were chasing them I’d get my 30/30 without hesitating. But for this.. what can I do? What I really wish is that I made enough money to fence in my property and not have to worry about stray dogs tearing through the yard. If I was able to fence it in this wouldn’t be an issue and my cats would be safe. It’d also help deter the teen thieves who keep stealing my gasoline/diesel cans after burns in the yard.
The job hunting is going all right. Haven’t had any call backs but have only applied to five jobs so far:
Newspaper (I know some people who worked for the paper and they say it is a terrible place to work. Terrible.)
City (really want this job. My former boss is going to put in a good word with the Mayor who will hopefully put in a good word with the department this position is for. We’ll see.)
Iraq (Inventory manager)
Korea (Teaching English)
Department of Health (local - possibly not a ‘real’ job. Could’ve just been a posting to satisfy legal requirements to advertise the position while they already have an in-house person ready to take it.)
I had a thought that if I could sell my property/house I might be able to make enough to pay my mortgage, debt and perhaps even student loans and then start over with another place in the area or elsewhere in the country, with only a 30 year and utilities to be concerned with. That would be interesting if it was possible. Although with the housing market the way it is I’m not so sure. Of course I do have 3 acres so…. Maybe I could get a realitor to check it out.
How many ideas and half plans can you juggle? I’m working on eight right about now. 